Thursday 12 December 2013

The Clearing Clouds





The rain woke him up.

He opened his eyes to see the drops of water patting against the window pane. A stray dog was barking somewhere in the distance. Rain in Delhi during the month of June was horrible to say the least. Not only was it heavy and continuous but also it carried the deposits of garbage into the nooks and crannies of the city. The strange aroma of the coffee mixing with the unique smell of rain filled his nostrils.

He got up ever so slowly and walked over to the window. In the distance he could see the tall structure of one of the most sought after tourist destinations in the whole of Delhi, The Qutub Minar. It felt as if the famous monument was within arm’s reach, partly because it was. Everything in this city was so close to everything else that nothing seemed too far away. Yet today was an exception.

He had hoped to get some sleep but in vain as he was up all night wondering about his future and its uncertainties. He was yet to recover from the trauma of last month and already he felt a new fear setting in. If only his Father had not been brave, he would still be alive. If only....

Flight Lt. Ajay Menon had been on a mission in the state of Uttarkhand, evacuating the flood victims when his chopper crashed due to bad weather conditions. He knew of the weather but still decided to carry on, which proved to be fatal.

As he was standing near the window, he heard a voice call out to him. The voice was only too familiar. Ever since the tragedy had struck, his mother would personally take the pain of waking him up every morning, though the fact that she didn't need to never occurred to her. Her voice repeatedly calling out his name did the job quite well.

He managed to get himself downstairs to have breakfast. As they were seated gulping their food his mother reminded him to keep in touch with the current affairs and read the newspapers. Something his father did every day. He knew his exams were drawing near and felt he didn't need this constant reminder. He was in the tenth grade and the exams were ever so close, but he didn't care. He just couldn't.

It was time for school and as he was heading off, his mother handed him his lunch carrier, which he’d forgotten again. She gave him a kiss on the cheek and said that she loved him. He knew that. He had always known that. But he thought she couldn't love him as much as his father did. No one could.

Things at school went on as usual, nothing out of the ordinary.  Somehow he felt that time was moving very slowly and had to wait for a long while before evening came. As he was heading home, he noticed some of his friends being picked up by their fathers. Though his father never used to drop him or pick him up from school on a regular basis, he felt a strange emotion. One he’d never felt until now. Sadness. Until now, he was either denying the fact that it had happened or was filled with anger whenever the thought came to him. Until now. He pushed aside the tears rolling down his cheeks and walked home, alone.

Dinner progressed in silence, with neither he nor his mother wanting to break it. When he was finished, he left the dining room to go upstairs, where he could find some solitude. He hoped tonight was the night he’d get some sleep but knew that he was being overly optimistic. As he was lying there in silence, he couldn't find a reason as to why he loved his father so much. He thought probably because his father was always out there helping  and saving complete strangers and whenever he’d get the chance he’d come home to see his son. He had never missed his birthday and he was always there for him whenever he needed him. He saw his mother day in and day out but his father was rare, special. He was deep in thought when he realized something.

 The Air Force official had come the day after the tragedy and had handed over some of the things that belonged to his father along with a package that was addressed to him by his father. He hadn't cared to know what was in the package and hadn't opened it. But now he was curious and jobless.

He gave a quick look around the room. The room was a mess and the dust quite conspicuous. Finally he spotted it. The package was sandwiched between some of his books.  He quickly went over and picked it up, all the while his mind racing as to figure out what he’d find in the package. He broke open the seal, his heart now beating faster every second. Trying to erase his anxiety, he looked inside and found a photograph along with a note. He instantly recognized the photograph, him being sandwiched between his parents in front of the great Deodar Bridge in Darjeeling. The famous bridge connected two twin hills which was a breathtaking tourist attraction. They had been there last year, when they were visiting Darjeeling.

He opened the note. It read:
Dear son,
If you are reading this, then probably you’ll know that I have gone on a one way mission. It is understandable that you are angry with me for leaving you at such short notice. You also might be denying the fact that it happened. Son, always remember, denying the truth doesn't change it. The only thing you have to know is that I love you. I always have.
Here comes the surprise which you were waiting for.

I've left you something, something that will possibly inspire you to forgive me. Remember nothing comes for free. You’ll be worthy enough to locate it if you decipher these lines.

Hidden within these stony walls,
A treasure, soothingly calls
Out to you, inconspicuous as ever it lies,
Beneath these crimson tiles.

You’ll find it.
Only when nothing is awake,
More than open eyes it will take;
Seek with an open mind,
Caught in a fix? Just rewind.


When he finished reading, He thought ‘what the hell!!’
He was ready for a lot of different things that could have been in the package. But a photo with a letter containing a poem about some treasure was definitely not one of them. For a moment he just wanted to throw the letter away and go back to sleep or at least the notion of it, but finding a hidden treasure by deciphering some gibberish lines seemed far easier than finding sleep.

He started thinking.

OK. So ‘hidden within these stony walls’ and ‘beneath these crimson tiles’ definitely meant that whatever was hidden was hidden inside the house and not outside it. Yup. But the house was not so small as to pinpoint the exact location. At least he was getting somewhere....
‘Only when nothing is awake’ was the only clue regarding how to actually find it, but he thought it was a little too ambiguous. The reference could have only been to the night. But what time? May be it didn't really matter or may be it did....?

He was pretty sure that it should be early in the morning, because he knew that staying up late in the night was a common thing these days. Earlier, he remembered, he could never get up early in the morning. Even during exams. So he decided four thirty in the morning to be the ideal time for his venture.

He was awake for most of the time and when it was time he slowly got out of bed and made his way to the stairs. He descended very slowly as not to wake his mother. He was about to grab a flash light when he heard sounds coming from the kitchen. He froze, his heart beating faster now.

He tiptoed carefully across the dining hall to see what the noise was when he noticed his mother in the kitchen watching over the vessels on the stove and doing the dishes simultaneously. He had no idea that she got up so early. He knew that she slept late, after finishing all the chores of the house and cleaning up stuff. He now realized that she would hardly have the time to catch some sleep at all. She continued working without the slightest idea that he was there. She was like a ubiquitous presence, doing so many different things, simultaneously without the slightest discomfort.

It was impossible to search for whatever he was looking for at this time with his mother up, he thought. Perhaps he should get up a little earlier or stop this madness altogether. The latter seemed more sensible. With this thought he slowly went upstairs, hoping to find his long lost sleep.

The familiar voice of his mother woke him up from his slumber and he stumbled downstairs for breakfast. Everything was back to normal. His mother asked him how he had slept and he lied that he had slept great. Once again she reminded him to read the newspaper before he left for school. How could she, he thought, remember to remind him every single day, since his father passed away, about one godforsaken thing. How could she? How could she get up at four thirty in the morning every single day just so he could go to school in time, satisfied with a good breakfast and carrying more than a mouthful for lunch? Did she love him that much, so as to not get bored of doing the same things over and over again? Of seeing his rotten face each and every day? He realized that she was so inconspicuous that he hadn't noticed all these things until today. Until today....

And then it hit him.

He finished his breakfast without another word and went to change for school. Everything started to fall into place as he climbed the stairs. ‘Inconspicuous it lies’ he thought. He remembered all the questions that were surfacing in his mind for the past one month and now realized that he was staring right at the answer all along. A smile spread across his face as he put on his shirt. He was asked to ‘Seek with an open mind’ and he could not believe how stupid he was. How stupid he had been all this while. He had found his treasure today early morning; he just had not realized it.

The smile on his face grew even wider now as he came down the stairs. As he was about leave, he did the same old thing that he did every day, although this time he did it intentionally. His mother asked him to wait as she brought his lunch carrier and gave him a kiss. And then he did something he had not done for a very long time. Kissing his mother on the cheek, he bid her goodbye and walked into the morning sunshine with a strange feeling that he was not alone. Not any more.

Wednesday 23 October 2013

Random

Walking beneath the starry skies
Into the horizon that never ends
Dreaming of things, Vaguely distant
Doing stuff and not knowing why
Hoping that the sun would smile again
When, all the while,
the voice inside our head is asking us to come home.